Oh yeah

When the Dr. walked in at E's last appointment he said, "OH! You have happy hair today! You need a haircut!" My mom was so offended. I was just nervous to cut it. So I did. It was rather silly. The WIC lady noticed and then my friend Kris came over and laughed at it. =[ I tried!

I got more issues than the New York Times!

So what's up? I'm so sick of crime. I am going to move to the hills. ERGH! If you wonder what I'm talking about it's mainly theft, grafitti and vandalism. I'm SO annoyed. I cannot have anything outside of my house because it will be stolen *literally* within hours. Somebody ripped, wait, UNSCREWED and TOOK my car antenna today. And I have graffitti that says something so stupid like, "I RULE" spraypainted on my fence. Never live on an alley in the central valley, ok? That is going to be in my new rap song. Look for it when it comes out. I will sign your recycle bin.

So last time I weighed in I lost a total of 8.2 I think? Can't remember. It's so frustrating because I'm still fatter than I have ever been in my whole life. But I went to yoga last week, FINALLY! It was awesome. Ally taught it (this and the following for Jen and Ang's information.) Of course she taught some HUGELY intense cardio aerobic class right before. She looks amazing and she dyed her hair dark brown.

Anyway. She is one of the best because she is super spiritual. She talked about attachments in terms of fear of loss. I thought about that all week. I pretty much boiled it down to what I always boil it down to: Control what you can and accept what you can't. It's the only way to stay sane and serene. I have to remember it constantly and sometimes I am just crazy and there's nothing to be done about it. Except maybe go back to yoga! Which I will be doing tomorrow morning.

She also talked about how the exercise is preparation for the meditation. Struggle is necessary because the changes take place in the recovery. She is so awesome.

Ethan is eating tons of food. He sleeps SO good through the nigh excpet when Nate turns the temperature down to 65 degrees!!! "ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND?!" That is my favorite thing to say to him because he is INSANE!

I have SO many pictures and videos of E that it is ridiculous. For some reason I just cannot make myself accomplish ANYTHING! I always have this idea in my head that I'm going to make all of these changes and then I just never do. It's like I think the changes are going to make themselves. Whatever!

Hello again.

Obviously Nate wrote the last two blogs. He is so cute to do that for me. He just got a new job at a medical software company as an account number. He is salaried and has his own desk and he is THRILLED. We soon will have INSURANCE! YAY! And I will probably try to get a part-time bankruptcy job if the pay is right. I can't beat the pay at my work, but they are NOT flexible enough. It's a dilemma.

I lost 1.8 lbs last week. I decided to make sure to drink more water and to eat my daily dairy. Usually a string cheese and a skinny cow ice cream sandwich or Weight Watchers ice cream bar. AWESOME! Diet food really has come a long way.

My next step is to attend at least one yoga class on the weekend. Nate and I are so healthy it's unbelievable. He makes us dinner EVERY NIGHT! He is an amazing cook. He makes a mean curry, turkey burger, and sweet and sour chicken! MMMM! He is also playing basketball twice a week and has started to swim once a week. He is getting so skinny.

A couple days ago the baby was coughing a terrible cough. My mom had been sick so I knew he was probably going to get sick and I had a terrible sore throat. I told Nate, "Your son is in there hangin' with Mr. Crouper."

So the next morning I decided he really had to go to the Dr. My mom took him cause I was sick and I still had to go to work (due to the inflexibility). I figured I needed as much sleep as possible as I fall asleep at work EVERY DAY! Anyhow I ended up feeling TERRIBLY guilty because instead of just writing him a prescription like I had assumed, they had to give him a breathing treatment and steroids! SHOOT! I wish I would have been there. Then I had to worry about him all day at work. So I guess it was better that I got some sleep. My mom said the Dr. came in and said, "Hi," and Ethan said, "Hi!" Hahah. I believe that. Then the nurse set up the whole breathing apparatus and he threw up right into it. Hahaha. Then he wanted to play with the mask and loved it. So at least he wasn't crying or anything. He's such a good baby.

In the end the Dr. said it was EITHER asthma, RSV or croup. What a great diagnosis. He was better the next day but they gave us another dose of the steroids just in case. I'm a little concerned about giving such a gigantic baby STEROIDS! Shoot! Nate said when he was little he had asthma attacks so bad that he would pass out and the ambulance would have to come and shoot adrenaline into his HEART! Just like in Pulp Fiction! SCARY! It makes me really mad that his mom smoked in the house his whole life. Duh. Quit it. Especially when your kid almost dies all the time. PFFFFT! But I'm also thinking that the steroids is what made Nate so big too as there are really no big people in his family. Hmm...